Day of Reading, Day of Thinking.

It's Reading Day. Have I read anything? Negative. Have I been able to do much of anything productive? Negative. Have I thought about the same things over and over? We've got a winner. I just want to be able to get things done. I'm tired of worrying. I'm tired of being scared. But, I'm not going to stop. I can't give up now. I haven't lost the faith quite yet. I will continue to at least try to look strong. I am, though, even though I may think different sometimes, getting stronger. I wore my grandma's pearls today, and the catch kept turning. It's gotta mean someone is thinking of me. :)

I can't believe how much I'm going to miss crashing in Kandra's room, watching movies and talking about everything. There are so many things I'm going to miss about this place. But at the same time, there are so many things I'm not going to miss.

If I weren't so scatterbrained, I would have so much more to say. One day, when my life gets back on some kinda track I'll be able to open up more again.

"So pretty, so smart

Such a waste of a young heart!

What a pity, what a sham

What's the matter with you, man?

Don't you see it's wrong, can't you get it right?

Out of mind and outta sight

Call on all your girls, don't forget the boys

Put a lid on all that noise!

I'm a satellite heart

Lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far

You stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I hear you're living out of state, running in a whole new scene

You know I haven't slept in weeks, you're the only thing I see

I'm a satellite heart

Lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far

You stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I'm a satellite heart

Lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far

You stop I start

But I'll be true to you no matter what you do

Yeah I'll be true to you"